The meaning of life is undefined, infinite, and ever changing. It could be possible that life is abundant and happy as well as bleak and miserable. Depending on who one speaks to, life is different and life is, well, life. The trials and tribulations of life range from minimal to maximum potential for each individual. Could it be possible that an individual who applies their maximum potential have an abundant life? Or could it be possible that an individual who lacks their potential have a hard life? But, what is an abundant life or a hard life? Luckily, I've had the opportunity to experience both said lives. The combination of abundant and hard has been an amazing journey. I often refer to this as the “tornado of life.”
The “tornado of life” is immense in size, overwhelming, yet it is grounding. The wind gusts of fear can rip through the foundation of who we were and leave nothing but chilled, bare bones. The debris of hurt and disgust can surround us with confusion and overtake our minds. We can feel alone and the life within us can be lost to the force of an ugly, bigger than me, bigger than you, thing. Somehow, however, we have strength to lift our chins and look around; gray skies, brownish, leafless trees, scattered dirt and stones can take over our path of life. Just when we think we should give up, surrender to whom or what wanted us to, a structure was in the distance. It was our homes.
The meaning of home, to me, is solid and true. Home is tangible; walls, windows, rooms, floors, and doors. Home is intangible; faith, love, support, and security. Maybe home is within us, not somewhere we live or visit. Isn’t it said that we build walls around ourselves to protect our vulnerability or when we need hope, it’s often said that when one door closes another opens? Could it be that each floor we wonder be the experiences of our lives, one step at a time? And love; “You've managed to open the window to my heart.” Or when the opposite happens; “I have no room for you in my life anymore.”
We have no control over when and where we were born or who chose to raise us. Those factors, or people, raised us to the best of their abilities. Some have had a challenging upbringing and some have had an easy childhood. But, what we do have control over are all of the intangible items within our home; faith, optimism, hope, and confidence. We all have free will; freedom of choice. If we don’t apply our free will and truly engage ourselves with our unlimited potential, then maybe we chose to have a hard life or a dismal home. Maybe we chose to close our doors and have them remain shut for no one or nothing to allow us into a different spectrum of life. One would remain stagnant and it’s easy for one to blame others for their cluttered, unfulfilled home. Is it that we choose to ignore the intangible and only focus on what is seen and heard rather than seeking life within to make any, whether big or small, changes? We have the free will to rearrange our furniture, a lamp here, a table there. So why not rearrange our inner foundation, a chance here or a risk there?
Throughout my life, I have learned that life is what you make it. I have rearranged my life in so many ways I could publish my own life-decorating magazine. I haven’t found the perfect fit to each of my life floors because the doors keep closing and opening into different rooms. Some of these rooms are scary, filled with dis-ease and loss, but then another door creeks open and I am within a room of mystical happiness and bliss. On and on it goes, or shall I say, on and on my home grows.
I would never change the foundation that was put before me; my parents, my family, my upbringing. What remains to this day is my faith. My faith pushed me through all things and all challenges. It is not that we work out our problems, we work through them. That is where and when our wisdom grows to help us flourish ourselves into someone new; humble, aware, grateful.
Life is full of chances because of our God given free will. I believe in my faith and I am beyond grateful to found such beauty within it. Although life is undefined and ever changing, life is grand.